Its difficult to flash the BIOS on a computer as this information is burned into a chip. It sits below software, deep in the guts of the system. BASIC IN OUT SYSTEM. Our own minds have these hard-wired centers too. and these cause untold mischief.
Trauma is flash burned into the Brain's Amygdala, remembered or buried- It is there. This is our basic IN OUT system.
To the trauma child and trauma adult, these concepts are meaningless, however to a mind also seeking to understand , this is a liberating idea.
The mind examines itself, searches within. Yet the power is held still by the ancient areas of the BIOS , and the cognitive mind is held hostage. because to understand is to flimsily and nervously skirt around a sleeping animal. Tip-toeing around it, and well aware that if it wakes up then understanding it becomes rather a secondary matter.
In my experience I live both as the animal and as the examiner of the animal. The animal is fear. And when fear is awake, there is no other state and all thoughts are dissolved away.
So the record plays and plays in the same way.
Examining these grooves make no difference to the tune. Behaviours. Thoughts. Deeds.
Yet to make a tiny change, just one?
by Paul Sinclair
This journal confronts childhood trauma, adult PTSD and anxiety disorder. There are also experiential themes of ACOA (being an adult child of an alcoholic).