Psychosis is not something I have experienced, though I can see how the brain can suddenly flip into a convulsive state. As a non-expert, the only other term I have heard is "neurosis". It's a shame that being "neurotic" should generate the motor response of slapping either oneself or another person out of apparent hysteria. That "worrying" is simply a switch to slap into an off position.
Central to my experience is the issue of esteem; and deeming one's self to be "damaged goods". The self-narrative mechanism delivering one liners. "I'm fucked up". So eloquent.
This is accompanied by the general ACOA traits of murderous self-criticism and self-loathing. Self-loathing for something not done yesterday, or some error of judgement or collapse in confidence or magnificent humiliation.
Parent A's reinforcement of my worthlessness was incalculable in frequency over 23 years. These were issued as statements of fact; of one's rubbishness, yet often soothed or compensated for in some way by Parent B (the rare, sober version of parent A). Soothed but not remembered let alone redacted.
Emotional attacks upon the child's developing sense of worth from toddlerhood into teenagehood yielded a nervous and frightful person, and also more seriously, a person unaware of their potential (until now). The teenage child would then manifest physical symptoms of trauma for example by depositing clumps of hair onto school books. When hair begins to fall out at 14, this is a twisted and cruel turn of fate for the trauma child.
by Paul Sinclair
This journal confronts childhood trauma, adult PTSD and anxiety disorder. There are also experiential themes of ACOA (being an adult child of an alcoholic).